hmm...not much of a xanga person...i don't like putting my thoughts down too much...
anyways, tonight was pretty interesting. It's really weird how hardly any of us knew each other at the beginning of the year, but now BOOM...we all have a lot of fun together. Even though we know we won't get anything done, we continue to have our geishu meetings (which I'm definitely not complaining about :]). Everyone brings something special to the group and even if one person is missing, it's noticeable (like keviiin tonight).
If people saw us in Physics and at school, they would have a really hard time believing that we can actually sit down and have serious conversations. Even though we argue a lot, we really listen to each other and respect each other's opinions (no matter how much we may disagree); now that's something.
Also about something that came up tonight. We were talking about how there's a man who gives blood twice a week to feed his family or simply pay for gas and other necessities. So that made me think; how much do we appreciate our lives? As sad as it is, I have to admit that I don't think I have ever appreciated my life. What does it take for one to do so? Does something bad necessarily need to happen for me or anyone to realize how fortunate they may be compared to others?
Another thing that was bothering me was the idea of helping other people. Do we always think about helping others because it will make us feel like we're making a difference or because we genuinely want to help others. I mean, yes, you can genuinely help others and still be motivated by how bad/good of a person you have been; but, is it possible to get past that and just want to help others for simply helping them. I might have done that a couple of times in my life, but what will it take for that to replace all selfish actions or motives? What action needs to be taken for everyone to help others out of the goodness of their heart and out of simple realization about how fortunate their own lives are? | 
I can't go on."
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